This is a blog about some mama feelings I am having tonight.
This is a post about a mother, by that mother regarding being a mother! 😆
As a mother we often find those moments when we find ourselves going through difficult times, I am going to express my current emotional one in this blog.
Being a mother is the hardest and most rewarding job in the world.
I am a mother of three blessings, Marisa is 18 years old, Jay is 10 years old, and Miley is 8 years old.
I am thankful to my three because of them I am full of an abundance of different types of experience My children have taught me important and valuable lessons, yet I fear I will forever feel like a rookie.
My daughter Marisa has officially become a Legal to vote, adult. 🙂
I have always imagined by the time she would be an adult I would feel this huge seasoned veteran feeling of Motherhood!
The funny thing is I feel like I just gave birth to her all over again because I’m experiencing a lot of those same feelings of love, excitement, and fear.
My daughter has always been the type of person who would rather have a few real friends than a bunch of fake ones. She tends to her beautiful friend garden
and doesn’t keep around a bunch of weeds. I was more outgoing, as a young child I made friends with everyone so I didn’t completely understand her selective invitations into her life. I would often remind myself what her pediatrician told me in her young years, “she is selective with reason, she will no doubt have long lasting fulfilling relationships”. It’s true when Marisa gives you her heart she means it for as long as you will allow.
I do think that it’s hard for people who tend to be understanding and patient as Marisa is to realize some people can become poison to our souls and we must love ourself first and accept we have to move on. The longer you hold onto the wrong person the less time you have with the right one.
Marisa had been in her first “love” relationship with another and he became part of our family for the past four years. (insert breakup)
Everyone in this life has to do what they have to do in their own way to find themselves.
When a person begins their “self search ” their life may completely change. Life has the ability to change us in ways we didn’t even know exists. Sometimes during the self exploration it requires a person to leave all they have known and display a new found deep desire to venture out for answers. People that are left behind do not always understand this. It is easy to feel lost, confused, angry, and maybe even replaced.
I promise you, you are NOT a replacement you’re a one of a kind heart. You both shared beautiful love and friendship memories together because of him and YOU! There is no duplicating your love, and there never will be.
Everyone let’s go in their own way and in their own time, and it’s something we all have to do at some point in life.
I know currently the hardest part is you miss him, the one you fell in love with, hoped, dreamed with. You are hanging on to all the memories because there were so many awesome ones throughout the years.
Being real, I have seen you without the support and love you deserve for a while, too long.
I can hardly wait for the day when you wake up and don’t miss him anymore. I can’t wait for the day I see that you are ready to go get and enjoy the love you deserve. Don’t let fear stop you, life feels so much better when you realize you are in control of your own destiny.
I am excited for the moment you find that person who is your Best Friend and you both wanna spend every moment with the other because it just makes life so much better.
You see that other person and you see no separation between the two of you.
Find the person you want to be around all the time and create the love and kind of relationship you always wanted. Friends make life so much more fun and as you mature you will start to see things differently, you will see you already have all the love you need.
You will then begin to find your true self in another and that is real love.
I’ve learned that watching your child cry is always hard. We all have to remember there are lessons that can only be learned from the hard knocks of life.
The hard knocks of life are those brutal realities when we are given an experience that only time and learning will reveal.
As a mother we often times find ourselves sitting right along our child on a roller coaster ride we have no control over. What a mother sees is different, each time I see you lose a bit of your spirit, it is extremely difficult to accept. I must remember only you are in control of your lessons in this life. You are in charge of how long they will last. I am just your life cheerleader and guide hoping you will not allow much longer for parts of yourself to be taken again and again.
Life gives us unexpected loops, stops, and pauses…
Life ,events, experiences, they tend to change us in the way we let it. We get hurt and become salty and begin to let go of trust. When you feel fear and question loyalty and trust remember you are those wonderful things so always remember to be your own reminder that trust and loyalty totally exists.
While I’m painfully learning that there is nothing we can do at times to take away the pain from our most loved ones. I definitely am feeling the pain and living it right along with you. I hope you will find some comfort knowing I will never leave you alone.
Important closing Mother arguments : from mama and mama’s all magnificent wisdom…
If there is a lesson to be learned let it be something beautiful. Realize you deserve people in your life who make your faith a constant reminder, you stronger, and doesn’t drain but fuels your soul. You don’t deserve anything less than that. You deserve someone faithful you can trust, someone who makes you feel wanted all of the time, not just “some of the time. ” You deserve Respect all of the time. You also need to remember you deserve someone who makes time for you because you are worth it.
Ask God for what you want and then Thank him for everything! Thank the Lord for life’s lessons because they are indeed a blessing, any chance to learn and improve your life is… It’s up to you now!
Love, Mom Michele Renee