Gus, everything about you is interesting; and I appreciate all you have done for me the past few weeks. I know it has been difficult for the both of us. We have been real and ripped each other apart and we still want to believe the truth that lives in our heads and wrestle with anything else. Hearing what we thought happened or believing that the current situation was or could be different than the beliefs we hold is one of the hardest things to do. We are a unique couple of people we share so many similar interests, fears, but more than that; we continue to try; not give up on each other because we see the greatness that lives in each other. At one point somewhere someone may have twisted things in our head and we believed them. The thing is we remind each other that the lies are nothing but that but more than that we trust each other enough to believe it. WE also have discovered together that no matter what we say, how we feel, how we disagree… we still continue to talk because we know that our will to know each other really know each other because the level of intimacy we have discovered is worth every fear that kept us believing lies.
I love how you talk to me in all your different personalities; all those people inside of us who exist but I am in love with all of them; the one who is obnoxious, the one who begs to be taught~ wants to learn wants me to teach him everything he wants to hear for the first time from a woman who knows what she wants and will show him what she wants from him, the one who becomes this strong confident man who I have elevated him with his own unnoticed truths. Telling him all those hot things he does, how he holds me firmly and shows a strong thirst 100% thirst for me even though he just had me 3 times earlier that day. You make me feel amazing I make you feel amazing and together we create a fantasy of reality on our own. We enjoy all the variety that life craves; but only in each other; so we discover what it is that we are searching for ; and we become the dream and its always amazing. It is exciting and invigorating I can’t imagine spending my life with anyone else.
Our love is so strong from all that we understand in each other; but even more from all that we don’t understand but want and work hard to….
People can talk shit; I would do anything for you, I would die for you; but come on would they live for you? Face the demons of life just for the sake of releasing it another soul. You are 100 brave; you love with all you have, you put down your pride and allow me to be the woman I need to be; the woman that makes me feel amazing, special and completely different from the others; because I am in a totally different category. You will give me all you have, even your weakness… sounds of a barking dog; or a donkey it doesn’t matter…. All that matters is loving me so I pull you over to me because your reinforcements are just those things I need because you take the time to study me. WE never allow others to mind fuck us; and if we do for a while we remind each other the truth… WE are in control and together we are the bomb ass diggity dawgs around…. AAWWOOOOO
Nothing is hard for us, together we find comfort because we have allowed ourselves to be weakest with each other together… Our love is one hell of a crafty mind fuck but its ok because we are having the time of our lives.
making us never give up on our blocks… When stuff comes out from the past; the past long before we were connected. I know that no matter how hard life gets I know that there is someone by my side who isn’t afraid when it comes down to it.
Hearing how you have hurt another person especially someone who you love, is hard for us… and you still need to know when and how you do it even knowing that you love that person so much. Sometimes it is hard to see another’s view because it is not our reality. We try and understand anothers reality and then we together decide to create our new reality together.
It is a beautiful feeling when you recognize that you are willing to face hard truths you could never admit before; let go of the denial and face it, understand, share, and love.
Written by Michele Renee Trevino-Rodriguez future-(Montiel)