Life would be so much easier; if it would just work out the way we plan.
It is so hard when we want immediate answers; we want to know everything…NOW!
Everything in our society is built so that we get things as fast as possible; people don’t practice patience much anymore; and some children aren’t even taught about patience. It is about doing all we can to hustle; get it; get it fast; take it or someone else will.
Why does it seem everything has to be a long drawn out process, it angers us to wait; it gives us anxiety when things are uncertain; and why must we continue to have a life feeling so unsure, haven’t we gone through enough?
Over the years; we are faced with troubles, lessons, hard knocks; we think back and we feel … we have proven to be faithful; so we often think to ourselves~ we are deserving; we demand an answer “why can’t we be rewarded with a life with fewer falls?” The funny thing is, faith doesn’t work that way; we can’t say, “we have been loyal; so there is the proof that I will continue.” People change their minds everyday; it is our right as human beings, but we must remember to stay faithful; especially during those times when things get harder; seem unfair; don’t add up; we can’t just give in, throw in the towel; take the easy way out; we must not just give up.
Just like Jesus had to endure here on earth we have our purpose and it shall be done. There are certain things we want, feel we deserve, and then there are our true needs. We need to realize we just aren’t going to get what we want when we thing we should. Who are we to claim to know what we need; who are we to claim to know what we must have and can’t live without. Why do we feel we are privileged above the rest and feel the right to be given the answers to the mysteries of life.
What we can be sure of is, Life is and will continue to always be a mystery.
So many challenges in our life and we are kept so busily trying to take OUT the mystery of things; we want answers for everything! We try to make sense out of everything we, our family, our friends are going through in this life; yet it seems like the more and more we are facing; life tells us is just plain impossible to explain.
Life is not fair, we want to make sense of it; we want to change it. In our minds if we are in control we can make it the way we want it; fair on our individual terms. What gives us the audacity to imagine; or believe our terms are better, smarter, greater than God’s terms?
A long-time friend of mine shared some words of enlightenment yesterday, and had me visualizing for myself; with an important reminder…
I was playing that game show; The Price is Right; where you have 3 options~3 different doors;
don’t really have a clue what is behind each door. How similar the game of Price is Right is to life,we never know where a decision of a path or journey will take us. Even when we don’t know where the journey will take us, we feel the urgency, we have this persistent strong immediate urge to make a decision. We want to figure out what is behind each door; and if we can figure it out, we need to figure at least one choice. We want to know what is behind any door as soon as possible, we think the quicker the better. We have the strong NEED to know what each door holds; and then when we do, we are still not satisfied. We see the direction but we still don’t know where it will actually be taking us. So many times looks are decieving; and what looks like the grand prize can quickly become a disguised grand disaster.
We want to open the door immediately; we have a vision; we feel something is brought to us out of what we believe is just plain luck or lack of in this life. It seems easier to think life works that way; we think about missed opportunity, regrets; and we want to jump on the bandwagon immediately. Yesterday, I was meditating on 2 things; timing and remaining humble. I know the truth nothing is done for our own personal time; we just don’t have the knowledge to even know the magnificent time clock that the Lord holds. Even knowing it is NOT about our time; it is about God’s Timing I still find a strong will that feels like a need to hurry, my time is precious; I need to do it NOW.
However; when I truly think about it; my friends encouraging words come to my mind. When I look back on all my decisions; every road; every path I have taken the best rewarding times were those in which my path was strongly with the Lord. The times I left the Lord out of my life; ignored his knocks were some of the darkest, excruciating times of my life.
My leader is in control; he leads, and sometimes he allows me to go forth; as he sits alongside me; but when he is my center I always know that whatever I am doing it is right; I can just feel the difference. How dare I ever question God’s steering; who do I think I am to take control over the wheel of life and try to push the true navigation to the side with my unfaithful heart. Faith is not just loyalty; but it is believing even when all odds seem to make you believe otherwise; there are some true deceptions in this world. Thank you to my friends Daniel Lozano and his loving wife Alice who have been by friends over twenty plus years; and continue to be a loving example of reminders to his word.
I can never let a ritual of repeative powerful words like, ” Jesus I Trust in You” become just words I say on the daily with little meaning.
I need to really believe and accept the truth that I do trust and remember no matter what path I take; as long as God is my center; I am on the right path; because I can trust in him; he loves me.