And today in mysanantonio~ 

The paranoia is in bloom, the P-R
Transmissions will resume
They’ll try to push drugs
That keep us all dumbed down and hope that
We will never see the truth around

(So come on)

Another promise, another scene,
Another package lie to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on)

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious
(So come on)

Interchanging mind control
Come let the revolution take its toll if you could
Flick a switch and open your third eye, you’d see that

We should never be afraid to die

(So come on)

Rise up and take the power back, it’s time that
The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that
Their time is coming to an end
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend
(So come on)

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious
(So come on)

Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious
(So come on)

Hey, hey, hey, hey

 

 

College Longhorns Olympian-Sanya-Richards-Ross had an abortion

ABORTION!

The thought of something so personal being so public is often part of the reality when you “live” or just have a “moment”  in the public eye, kind of makes me wonder if I really ever want my blog to go viral; I can only imagine the conversations people would share about me.  It is amazing how things seem to come out of nowhere even YEARS after they have taken place.  Stop for a minute and think of your hardest time you have experienced, you are sweating with fear, you are confused with conflicting beliefs, your morals say one thing but your brain tells you another.  Embarrassment, you can NEVER go back to the “other side” the side you believed was the “righteous” side.  You feel so dirty, and unclean and in so many ways a hypocrite to your family, values, church, all those who tell you how you are supposed to live, but won’t/can’t step in and live your life for you.   You tell yourself you are strong, you are confident in your decisions whatever it maybe; but then, afterwards you live with the real sadness, the hurt, and forever pain that nothing can take away… EVER !  You have come to realize you are in this life living a life sentence. Luckily, many don’t know;  maybe you can pretend ~sometimes it never happened or even forget on somedays, but it always comes back.

Sanya Richards Ross was ready to face the 2008 Beijing Olympics, and as many women who have had abortions, along with the supportive men who created the “error” and who went on to maybe even realize the mutual decision to abort the fetus~will live the rest of their life fighting the inner demons that plague them from this decision.  Once an abortion is completed, many are not aware of the never-ending depression that seems to go on and on and forever damages your soul inside which then prevents you from being the great you that you were made to be.  

So many women, men, couples, have had their own “Olympics/reminders.”  The significant event that was taking place during that time; the time when the decision was made and leaves you with forever wishing it had never happened.

“I made a decision that broke me, and one from which I would not immediately heal,” she wrote. “Abortion would now forever be a part of my life. A scarlet letter I never thought I’d wear. I was a champion— and not just an ordinary one, but a world-class, record-breaking champion. From the heights of that reality I fell into a depth of despair.” 

That first hit of drugs, that first weakness of the moment you created or played your part in a web of lies, that point when you lost yourself… 

Abortion is not just a fly by night fix; you carry the wound forever, you dream of the fetus that never became, you wonder if it is with God, if you will ever be given the opportunity to hold it; see its face.  I don’t care what kind of degree or research you hold, you don’t know this answer, only God does, but if you ask him he will let you know…  And that is between you and thw Lord.  God wants you to have peace and you can count on him, and him alone to heal you.  

No matter how many times you try and convince yourself of something, you won’t find peace unless you make it with God and learn to forgive yourself.  If you tell yourself it never was a baby, it was never born, it wasn’t fully created, or …  

The many other reasons you believe to be true , or are questionong … One thing you know is true is that you decided to stop your creation, and when you decided it helped knowing maybe you did before it was complete…because~(your reason here) maybe you are unmarried, financially just can’t care for the child, you are a not ready to be a parent, immaturity, not enough supportive networks, fear, too many children already, medical reasons, victim of rape, the fetus isn’t healthy, unhealthy lifestyle, interference with career or education, there are so many reasons and NONE of which are anyone’s business but all or any of which seemed so important when you decided it was what needed to be done. You want what you think is going to be a quick clean slate; but you spend the rest of your days, broken~emotionally and physically and feeling like you murdered a part of yourself.  You question the creation and want a firm answer to when its officially a living being… 

😢 

I will tell you one thing that is a heavy harsh burden to carry forever! 

I can’t stand those who think they are holier than thou.. Judging others !  Always watching and pointing the finger about how others live, what others are doing, or AREN’T doing.  I consider myself extremely spiritual and yes, I consider myself Catholic because I was raised Catholic and love tradition; but that doesn’t mean any other religion is wrong or not quite doing it right.  We are all people fighting and trying to do what is right in this world, well hopefully.  One of my favorite lyrics from one of my favorite song artist of ALL TIMES, is so true… I can admit about myself

I have sinned A LOT, I am mean A LOT, but I am like sweet 17 a lot 😉

We are ALL sinners whether she kept the pregnancy… Which would result to a baby (depending on whose opinion you ask) wouldn’t have made her a better person. I think her deep thought, sorrow, and ability to share with the world makes her a hero. I pray she has forgiven herself, or works to do just that! Anything you do, bring greatness out of it, even of it’s just sharing your story.  She has shared her journey, the decision and its aftermath in her new memoir, “Chasing Grace: What The Quarter Mile Has Taught Me About God and Life.” I haven’t read it yet, I just saw the article on mysanantonio.com.  Sometimes, we go through difficult times because it is you will be the light for another, don’t ever regret hard times or hard lessons learned.

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If you really think mothers have it hard losing all that sleep during the infancy years, think about how a would-have-been parent feels after an abortion a lot of times, they spend the rest of their lives not being able to sleep because of the burden their hearts feel, bothered and not feeling worthy enough to let go and give it God.

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Abortion Statistics

NO MORE !

Sanya you  are loved, worthy, and dear you will forever live in my heart ❤ from one who lived a similar story!

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