I am a hero!

This song was released in 2001; and I found myself playing it on repeat today in 2018; retrospectively I sit here deep in thought about this time in my life and similarities to some of my current feelings. During the time I didn’t have a copy of the song in my collection; it didn’t hold any significant meaning. Then a couple of years ago the lyrics grabbed my attention and added it to my library. I knew it meant something important, I decided I would listen to it until I figured it out.

During the time the song was released I had been living in Plano, Texas a part of the great Metroplex~ Dallas, Texas for a few years, getting ready to move back home~ San Antonio.

Heading to temporary directions, Marisa & I moved in with my grandparents for a while and then shortly after a stay with my mother. I know I didn’t really understand at that specific time what “having a hero” felt like. I just knew that more than anything the only way I was going to be able to be someone’s hero was to find my own to teach me the ways 😉 I never realized at the time I would actually be learning how to be my own hero first to know what a real actual hero consisted of; so that I would be able to actually go out in the world and accurately find my own.

Each new day is an opportunity to practice being heroic. Some days the real battle is finding my strength; and other days, it is finding my peace; balance has always been my nemesis.

I first found my power, my strength in my role as a mom; it fueled me with a wonderful powerful fuel of love, acceptance, forgiveness, understanding, and fierce protective inclinations.

My first baby was born a few days shy of my 23 birthday; and as soon as she was able to speak; she began to introduce me to what feeling like a hero felt like.

I loved that I was 100% her hero…💖Marisa💖 Any day, any time, she knew I would be there for her… Love her, support her, care for her with all my soul all I could. I also knew that my baby girl who was only 4 years old at the time would one day grow up and find her own handsome hero and become a hero to her beloveds, I vowed to show her right …

I pray often that she will always know I will forever cherish the memory of when she made me a hero. Being a mother is amazing; it is a lot of responsibility; a whole lot of love, fun, happiness, and what a powerful relationship it grows to be I found now that she is an adult.

From the day of their birth and until the day I (mom) die, I get to guide these interesting beings, enjoy all the great times as I watch them learn how to one day go rule the world in their own unique way. It really made me realize more than anything, I wanted to be a hero forever, greatest feeling yet; to be the sunshine on their gloomy day.

The song had me believing I could be a hero again to someone on a different level.

The beginning of the song begins with a whisper, “Let me be your hero…” So, meaningful the whisper indicates the closeness of their interaction, and very powerful, because the truth is that we actually do have to allow someone to be our hero. It really isn’t easy to put down defenses, and allow yourself an opportunity for possible surprise attacks, especially for those of us who have been hurt a lot. Trusting someone you care for after you have found it hard to trust anyone can be a difficult feat.

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I can forgive myself for the part I personally played in keeping all those relationships with people I couldn’t trust in my life; and for way to long. I am also going to forgive myself for not allowing love for most of my life, I chose instead to replay in my mind the past pains and mistakes out of fear of finding myself in the same situation over and over again.

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I am trustworthy, therefore I know I can trust another soul; just as they can trust me. I will remind myself, and when I forget or doubt; my hero will help me remember and believe it.

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Love, is wonderful it always thinks about the best interest of the relationship and the best interest of both the other and self as individuals and as a unity. The freedom to be who we are down to the core in all situations, the good, the bad, the pretty, and the ugly; recognizing all the dynamic elements of who we have become up until the very moment; along with the freedom of letting go all the elements that are no longer us.

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My hero gives me encouragement to be so much greater as I am always on that upward climb to excellence. My hero gives me strength and confidence to achieve even my hardest goals because they know I am strong and have all the qualities to accomplish them. My hero’s strength surpasses all the strongest beings that is why they are my hero; my confidence in them gives them the only place, way above all others, right next to me.

My hero is fair, he is just; and reminds me to be fair and just. I will be your hero if you let me, I will always play fair and be just in all I do.
Would you dance if I asked you to dance? Would you be willing to do the simple things for me; the little things really do all add up.

Would you run and never look back? Most of the time when someone who is use to always taking and not giving has a change or shift in their dynamic; it will change the relationship.  If the person is needing to give to the other and isn’t use to it; a lot of self centered people will run away; go find the “next one”; who is ready to give to to them. Initially, it is easy to “give” to a person to most people during the infatuation period of a relationship; it is new exciting and the adrenaline working gives you a boost of energy in the initial stages.  

Would you cry if you saw me crying? Does your soul care for mine? If I am happy do you feel the happiness inside just as if it were your own; never jealous or bitter.

If I see you crying it would devastate me, because my pain hurts; and when you hurt, I hurt. Would you save my soul tonight? It really feels in so many ways your hero saves your soul; mends it and nourishes it…

“Hero”

Let me be your hero

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back?
Would you cry if you saw me crying?
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh? Oh, please tell me this.
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear that you’ll always be mine?
Would you lie? Would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
I don’t care. You’re here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you, oh, yeah.

Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
Well, I don’t care. You’re here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain, oh, yeah.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

(I can be your hero, baby)
I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

You can take my breath away.

A hero~ to me is someone who has affected my life in the most profound way. My hero is someone who I know will protect me with all their soul; my hero will die fighting for me; because my hero thinks I am worth more than anything else in this world.

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The most beautiful feeling is when someone cherishes you; I am not just talking about love… I mean they cherish you; they find you as the most interesting person; the thought of new ventures wouldn’t be worth it unless you are by their side. They see all the beauty you hold; and don’t really need or want to look elsewhere. There’s no curiousity just a fulfilled souls who only yearns and seeks more from the one…the one that no one could make /seem interesting, everyone isn’t just a down grade they aren’t even on the same level.

IS ANYBODY ELSE really OUT THERE?!

You can feel it; and they won’t let you forget it. Gustavo Montiel thank you for being my hero, I want to be yours … And we will figure out all the lose ends together 😉 its so much better with you!

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