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You’re the judge, OH NO set me free!

Sometimes it is really hard to make a decision for yourself when you realize that so many people you love will not be ecstatic about your decision like you would hope them to be.  I think it is such an uneasy feeling when people tend to judge your life choices or try to manipulate others to believe what they want them to be.  I will pray for more acceptance from others, I will still do what I know is right for me in the end, but I really hope that they will understand I would never intentionally let certain people that I value down.  I appreciate those who bring life to my life by encouraging me during my life and I will promise to be encouraging to those I love.  Life is hard enough as it is we really don’t need to be so critical to one another.  I think the difficult thing is that people want to be heard but don’t really want to listen to what others have to say.

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What is my price?

I have been asked, what is your price? What is your worth?

For you have made him a little lower than the angels, and you have crowned him with glory and honor.  ~Psalm 8:5 NKJV

Do you like yourself?   Do you feel you are living true to your souls destiny, do you feel your living where God wants you to be?

Sometimes I truly HATE and DESPISE myself; struggling with the hard knocks of life is tough and sometimes I feel stupid, weak, and lost.

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I can make understandings and allowances for others and remind them they are not stupid, they are strong and maybe just a little “off course” 😉 but for myself… I go hard!

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The last few years has been hard; especially the past year; but I am not the first person to suffer and I won’t be the last.

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People suffer everyday; and everybody feels their suffering is the ultimate suffering.

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The funny thing is no matter how sad, down, scared, or lost I feel; my spirit has been preserved.   My spirit is strong and tenacious, it is happy, and it rises, it is joyful; and navigates to my purpose…  if it wasn’t I wouldn’t be here sharing this testimony with you… and if your spirit wasn’t preserved you wouldn’t be able to feel this and know this message to be true. Real faith shines through, it remains even after the most trying difficult times.

Rebel at heart it’s seriously what Michele is made of,

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I know that I am definitely one to push the envelope if its near me; but growing up I also learned the importance of behavior.

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Crowned with Glory & Honor

Behaving in a way that is true to who I feel I am deep inside; not saying I haven’t done some things that would make my angels cringe; but I have a good heart and try to always carry myself respectable.  I know that every behavior has a consequence and you will eventually answer to the consequence; sometimes with the world watching and sometimes privately.  I may snap a provocative photo because it is a very strong part of my character I am proud of; but no one will ever see this provocative side of me out in the world; I save that character for my one and only. So while a picture can definitely speak~ a tune of a side of my soul ~you will never have the pleasure of meeting her.  🙂 Consequence~ Pictures backfire; especially with Photoshop, gossip, and evil intent by the miserable~ that is why integrity is important!

Think healthy positive thoughts, for people who suffer with anxiety and depression this is extremely difficult; but guess what remember you are strong! Don’t allow the fear to paralyze you; it is a lie you don’t need an escape; don’t stop~ living, live in the moment and thrive.

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Stop thinking the worst possible case in any possible case; it doesn’t control the outcome.  Stop wasting your energy being on “high alert” and enjoy the moment.  Don’t let another soul intimidate you! Let go and Let God; he has it handled!

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Don’t let any situation overwhelm you, stop fighting he already carried the cross for YOU.

Positive Self talk (BFF) and remind yourself that you are worthy and you deserve joy.  You are here to live, LIVE! And when your heart is beating out of your chest, stop and pray; you are not alone.  He is right with you; holding you and loving you.  You deserve love and you should put the guard down that you subconciously put up to allow it and protect your heart.  The tough act defense mechanism works temporary; but if you really didn’t care it wouldn’t make you so angry.

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You know how to get what you need for yourself; you go out and get it; you don’t stop until you do; so go get LOVE by loving others.

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We are loved by God~ (whose opinion should matter most)! Is us being loved by God with our faults and sins not enough proof, not enough security to risk love?  Begin with loving you; and then your neighbor.

Stop finding flaws in others and finding wrongs in them

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and realize we are all a work in progress.

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One of the hardest things is letting go of pain after you have been hurt.  I have someone who is so close to my soul and spirit; and we have allowed other people to come between us; to allow some other soul to ruin the special soul connection we had; and it is so hard to just forget how it hurts… yet we do it all the time.

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and unkown to me, I may have done the same to you 🙁

WE allow pride to win, and the distance gets longer until they fade away.

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If you love someone and they make you happy, stop the pride and connect because connections are not just an everyday thing.

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Waiting for someone else it ludacris some people really won’t fight for you it is not because they don’t think you are worthy; they just don’t know how; they don’t even know how to fight for themselves…

Find your purpose, I am not talking about what your mama or daddy have always wanted for you… I am talking about living TODAY (and then tomorrow) with those who matter and lift you, with purpose!

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Live with a purpose that pleases you and God!

In my boldest hour, I declare the Favor of God! 

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My Price by the way is:

Jesus  that is what God paid to save me!  <3
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Re-evaluation; remembering Truth

I am one of those who will go to the back of the line if it means putting elderly in front.  I am one of those who will walk a little longer, if it means allowing someone else to ride.  I will tell you; I have lost a lot of opportunity while I made the room for others to get ahead. I feel content; I know my soul is unique, kind, and one of a kind; but I have also allowed bitterness into my mind lately; as I seem to watch more and more of the wicked prosper because they are not willing to allow for an underdog; it is all about their own abundance.  Some people feel this world is theirs to take possession of; and become full of greed. Some are blessed with more knowledge than most and make a huge difference for others and content with just enough.   Some just need to be shown the way; some will definitely take the way.

Colossians 3:23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward.  It is the Lord Christ you are serving.  Anyone who does wrong will be repaid for his wrong, and there IS NO FAVORITISM! 
I do hold onto pride; and started the end of last year feeling I wanted to let it go; I will say; I had my time of allowing even violence become a part of my world because of pride in the past. It doesn’t matter how full of pride I have been; one things true I have never had a callous heart; I have never been so conceited it caused my mind to be evil to another who didn’t deserve it. 

I am no judge; but I will always root for the underdog and happily place those down who need it; this is not my world; this is not theirs, it is ours.  Keeping my heart pure doesn’t have its immediate reward; but I choose to hold onto my innocence until I understand a little more of the journey I am on that will lead to my final destiny.

Proverbs 16:2 All a man’s ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord

There are some; who seem to have very little struggle; it seems their lives have been fulfilling while they continue on with their strong and healthy bodies; and others struggle with weakness and health issues that all of a sudden came alive and become a part of someone’s essence.   Health is so important for success; realizing a person lives with some sort of disability can feel like a plague; a downward spiral casting one down to ruins.  It is necessary to change your mind; what you once were; may never be again; and where you are headed may take you down a complete different path from the road you previously traveled.  

Life can really be a fantasy; our life is what we allow; if we have a beast to fight; we must become our own hero; whether anyone recognizes it or not. 

It is normal to grieve; take time to understand how changes will affect all those involved; but don’t pause for too long; don’t allow fear keep to keep you from becoming all you can; allow your spirit to grow and venture in the new direction even when things don’t make complete sense.  When things don’t make sense; the bitter can stay ignorant; but when we allow our self to go with the flow and trust and have faith it is easier to get through the new and unknown remembering those who are with you physically and in spirit; like God and grow.  Ask for his counsel; he will show you the way; and like a light switch understanding will turn on; there is nothing on this earth we are taking with us; but our spirit.  When our flesh and heart fail; our strength will be found in our Lord, that is all we will have for eternity.  Anything; and all things we keep near us will stay alive; those things we allow to fade in the distant will disappear and perish.

One thing I have learned recently; my physical home~ is gone; our “tent” was destroyed; but the building we still have ownership of~the one we invested in is strong and indestructible;  the dwelling we are housed in with the Lord; our love as a family; the support we receive from our friends, our ability to get up each time we are knocked down because those are the things that were not built with our hands but with our spirit and the determination which we know all glory comes from, that from the Lord.   We may groan; cry, and sigh for a while but we know we are clothed in dignity even when all our cloth clothes are gone.  We all have our own burdens; but most earthly items can be replaced in this life; it is our spirit we must remember to never allow to be taken and vulnerable; that is when we lose the ultimate guarantee of all those things, that which we can lose and never replace. 

None of us are home yet; so we are all homeless in a way, finding our way.  Of course we can make a home anywhere we go; but the truth is we are only at home when we are with our maker.  We must remember the truth, we live by faith; NOT BY SIGHT.  If we have no faith; and we see with our eyes we are really blinded by the world~ ONE day we will have to answer for all those things we did while in our body; whether anyone saw/knows or not~ our judge knows.

Psalm 90:17 May the favor of the Lord our God rest upon us; establish the work of our hands for us~ yes, establish the work of our hands. 

Thank goodness; thank JESUS for forgiveness!

If you are of right mind; it really is up to you to decide.

Philippians 2:12 Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed~not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence~continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling. 

The more time that passes and the older I get; I get a feeling it is about feeling content with whatever comes my way; it is about learning about my immediate circumstance; remember what it feels like to have plenty; know and not forget what feeling needy feels like, and feeling content in both circumstances. Understanding; that what ever it is I have or don’t have; anything is possible through him; who gives me my strength.  During anytime I feel unsure; remember to ask him; he is generous and gives to me without finding any fault~ the truth is I have to believe; with no doubt; because when I doubt I am like a wave at sea; blown and tossed by the wind.

James 1:12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.