Patience and time, 2 Powerful Warriors

I am seriously always being backstabbed, throughout my whole life~ and no, I am not feeling sorry for myself but the truth is the truth. You can do so much for people, and all they will see is what you didn’t do. I am tired of being hurt and I think that is the point where people usually stop caring about others opinions or they just walk away. The amazing thing is how different a situation is to all the people involved, and they only see it through their eyes; so everyone creates their own individual memory of the truth of the current circumstances and the past.

The great thing I have learned is that no matter how convoluted the world around us gets, you learn at some point how to lift up from the clouds and make it happen. I think what is important is always making a time for reflection on all things, even during the terrible times.

Sometimes we learn to hide all our next moves, almost to protect the existence of them, because it seems like the more everyone knows your next move, they begin on working on getting there before you, or better than you, or just try to block your curve; and why? Why can’t we be more supportive to others? Why do we have to learn to protect ourselves so young? The great thing is when we learn early to not allow others to paralyze us; is a sad practice but with that guard up it seems we have our own St. Michael the Archangel sitting over our shoulder. I think the main thing we should really concentrate on is getting rid of all the toxic people who make us feel this is how life should be.

I need to remember to choose wisely, I need to wake up and be surrounded by those people who show support to me in me just allowing me to be me and living with all those positive things that bring my heart to its happiness.

The problem is that when your heart is huge, and you want to make allowances for people that treat you unworthy, is that we make too many “understandings” for them. Life is always going to deliver us with issues, and sometimes the difficult truth is some of us have felt abandoned by those we love over and over again. I know if someone doesn’t want me in their life any longer or for a while, what can I say…

I know how short life is, and when I think about one of the most important relationships, I have had that I felt I had to ignore, it finally has come to a time, where I have finally realized no one really won in the situation, you basically just missed out on past time together that you will never get back.

Sometimes I do feel that people come in and out of our lives for different reasons, and we must trust those reasons. We need to grasp those things and people that give us support. It is very easy to feel jealous when you see someone you love and so need sharing their life with others in their world but have shut you out. In a way, you feel inadequate, guilty, and sad. It is really hard when we have to leave people we love for a while when we love them so much see all the greatness in them, but for some reason, something about them brings about something toxic in our world. I would never want to be toxic to anyone I love, and if they feel I am, that isn’t for me to judge.

Ego is really something it can make people unbending forever if we let it, especially when people are so ever-changing and evolving. We may want to be open with another, but no matter what they don’t get it; because it isn’t about them needing to get it. Then there are those who just seem destined to always misunderstanding us.

Sometimes, the best thing is really stepping back and allowing people you love to figure things out for themselves. During tough times the hardest thing to do is what is the greatest thing that needs to be done, and that is simply holding your tongue, and not acting like you know all the answers.

Time! Time is sometimes what needs to pass, but then there is that catch 22 of missing those moments you can never get back.


We choose our outcome!


Easter Sunday~

This year 2020 on Easter, I think it is really important to surround yourself around the people that are for you. People that are “for me”, are those who love and accept me as is; the way I am, not the way they hope for me to be.

We in the world are full of flaws, I think one of the greatest gifts we can find in life is realizing we can always grow and be a better person continuously.

change mind change soul

At the same time, I think it is important for a well being of gratitude to look around at the people in my life and be thankful for the ways they have grown and helped me to grow. Thankful to those who made my life easier for me and those I love. Getting rid of negative energy is extremely important for me and those I love; that means concentrating on the good people that people are doing for me and my loved ones. Our tribe should consist of those who free us from that which kept us in a bind of misery and stagnancy. It seems a little cruel to think that from our very first moment in this world we have been suffering pain; and we will continue to do so. The bible does tell us, it rains on the just and the unjust.

Easter reminds me of HOPE; this is a perfect time when hope comes in to play; we can’t hope for that which we already have. We then initiate our hope! Hope can not really ever be seen therefore we develop a strong faith that contributes to a patience that we will eventually recieve all that we truly desire.


Time tends to take care of itself on its own; we really can only live for the moment. I think it is really important to not allow other people to”rain” or take away any more of my moments; I know I have a tendency to give others that power, specifically when it comes to those I love the most. What a sad situation it is to feel I have to constantly prove to someone else I am doing what I should, I am a good woman, parent, daughter, mother, sister, granddaughter, friend it gets really exhausting living that kind of life. When others don’t trust my choices and know I am never going to take the easy way out; I never have and I never will especially when it comes to those most important to me. I understand others have feelings I have taken those into consideration more than my own, more of the time; but I don’t have to follow anyone else’s strict adherences to how they think I should or when they think I should handle things; because I have been handling them fine. I will always take others expectations into consideration, and I have a good heart and will try my best to make sure everyone important to me feels they are. I also would never make any person feel that they are less of a person because they don’t do everything I expect they should do.

I try not to point out others flaws unless of course, I am defending myself or those I love; but I understand I don’t have any strong power to really change any person’s mind; and I don’t think I would really want to because that wouldn’t seem very genuine if it isn’t coming from what they feel. One of my favorite quotes I often say is, I am not a puppet master, you have to do what you want to do for yourself, and those you love because it is your choice; not because someone is telling you to; including me!

During tough times especially when we are emotional and living with fear I think it is beneficial to surround yourself with people who remind you we are going to be alright; people who strengthen our faith. The people who remind you what you want your home to feel like~


Happiness the people who work together, understand, and make us want to be stronger; they give us strength not deplete it; I shouldn’t interact then have a panic attack afterward! Everyone can act like they are there for another human being by giving them what is easy for them to give at the moment. I would say a person who isn’t struggling financially sacrifice would be smaller than someone who is struggling financially even with that later giving less money. I try to sacrifice an ever-present help when things are hard for me but it doesn’t mean my attempts will be done perfectly and without flaws. I still try to do all I can and my minimum expectation is respect and understanding.

critical peeps

God knows we will forever be in the revamping/healing zone every one of us we have no right to supervise another zone; especially when you don’t know what their individual purpose in this world is.


We can share with one another the things we personally get hurt about; and with time, understanding, work, and effort in the end we will hurt each other less if everyone works hard on it. If you are constantly struggling with an individual that is a dance with the wrong partner; things can get easier but it takes a give and take with both parties involved; not dragging others to form an alliance; that is manipulating. The only person you should be discussing your issue with is the person you have that issue with; it is wrong to make others a part of it when they don’t even understand the dynamics that created that situation, that is a bully mentality.

If anything during this time, we should really be concentrating on those people that mean the most to us that we can’t see; while this is temporary; it may not be. We never know how much time we really have here on this earth. If we miss someone why would we want to create chaos in our world and theirs? We should thank God for every moment we are able to connect with our loved one, we shouldn’t make those we love, feel like they are chained or in a constant state of defense.



Balance your World, Balance within

Balance today!


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New Year, New Me… Lol sometimes cliche just works~


New Year, New beginnings~

Every year each of us believe we will finally get our well deserved happiness after that “one” thing~. I will finally be happy I just need that new house, that car, that companion, that job, it is a never-ending drive toward something that is going to bring me a feeling of success in this life which will ultimately lead to that grand feeling of happiness. The funny thing is, when we finally attain “______” we often times realize it is not what we imagined; it isn’t quite the answer after all; and we shift our thinking to the newest chase.


Enter Holidays~

The holidays meet us with feelings questioning our adequacy; often times we are stressing over the answers of the questions that have yet been asked; by family and friends we seldom see; but no doubt love and care for.


What are we doing now, where are we working; what happened to “him/her”~the ex you don’t want to even think about, why are you still single, when are you getting married, why haven’t you had any more kids; why are you still with “him/her”, where are you living; what are you driving; and then the sizing up with the other “same aged” cousins, and often rude/passive aggressive questions like; “Oh my gosh your pregnant again; how many kids are you going have.” or the famous; “weight” remarks for those who are too skinny or too plump.

Exit Holidays~

The holidays quickly pass us by and leave us with feelings of ~ :/


Gotta be more, gotta get more this year…


Sadly, this is often times when we shift our focus and stop wanting, caring for, and appreciating what we already have. I am not measured by the things I own; they don’t own me; and neither does another soul; so my focus this year will be more concentrated early on, from the beginning. Keeping it real, is all about accomplishing what I set out to accomplish and making sure I realize the journey is just as important as the finish line. How I feel about me this year, how each moment makes me the person I will be at the end of the year. We all have the same number of hours, minutes, seconds in the day; we all have the same number of days; yes some of us are taking down some days, weeks, and maybe even months; but we all have the same time; we all share the same calendar; and locally the same season.


To everything (turn, turn, turn)
There is a season (turn, turn, turn)
And a time to every purpose, under heaven

A time to be born, a time to die
A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep

To everything (turn, turn, turn)
There is a season (turn, turn, turn)
And a time to every purpose, under heaven

A time to build up, a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn
A time to cast away stones, a time to gather stones together

To everything (turn, turn, turn)
There is a season (turn, turn, turn)
And a time to every purpose, under heaven

A time of love, a time of hate
A time of war, a time of peace
A time

We all have the same opportunities; hardships, and very different ones in many different ways; the truth is we can ALL obtain success on our own personal level; we can all work hard to obtain many desires; we really can; and if we strive to feel successful; we need to figure out what will really give us those feelings of success; what has given us feelings of success in the past, we need to do more of it this year; it isn’t just going to come to us; we have to make an intention.

INTENTION~ an AIM a plan; when I go to visit Jesus in adoration; I often make an intention; what my aim is my plan; a wish and plan I have to carry out that plan. If I am determined to achieve something; I make a promise to follow plan; and it isn’t bargaining with God like a lot of people try to make it out to be. I don’t walk in and say, “Lord; I need this; and if you give it to me, I will do this….” and intention is talking over your plan with the Lord; and allowing him to talk to you; and you won’t hear a rumbling voice speak back; but doors will open or close; opportunities will come or shift; and always remember the plan; keep true to your word and when you don’t acknowledge it; true forgiveness that is Jesus; he understands; get back on and stay true.



A Tree with Strong Roots laughs at storms


It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere. 
Artwork by Gustavo S Montiel III The Actual Third
The first impressions i received when taking in this wonderful piece… The strength that the picture conveys.
It’s as if the neck is made of sturdy solid wood, representing a strong sturdy tree trunk which signifies such growth stems from deep story type telling bitter roots.


When I think about all the things I am feeling from this particular piece of your artwork, I am proud of both, the growth of you as in individual and as an artist.


I love how everything seems to be branching out in an upward pattern, which really demonstrates your willingness to always aim for growth in a positive upward fashion,  even if we don’t always immediately go with that approach; there is nothing stagnant about this piece of art or the artist.
 You are brave, and have little fear; when it comes to love whatever it takes to get the blossom you are in.  I admire your bravery I know you will stand up for me if I can’t stand on my own; that is what love does and from that blossoms the most beautiful significant never dying blossom, respect.
Even the gaze in the yellow stare depicts a search for enlightenment, and a greater understanding.   wpid-fb_img_1441475308495.jpg
Where do we get the answers to that we want to understand?  Which ones will we adopt, which ones will we abandon, understanding is a never ending process.
Nature holds so much direction to the truth, the colors alive in our life~  in this piece the colors used are deeply connected to nature, trees, wisdom, time, this picture shows your ready for spiritual growth, ready to change like a season but this time with more wisdom the beautiful gift time allows. 

The hair is green which gives an energy of life that is transferred into the birth of leaves.  Leaves are in abundance in this piece, and as they extend from the powerful creation they represent there are no limitations, I love knowing we can have every possibility we can imagine to change our lives for the better each day.  If we don’t like something about our life just like our hair, we can cut it off and change it.


I hope that when your eyes look out and search for light you will always see the brightest light in me.  A positive bright spirit is how I want you to recognize I am near, that reminds you just how VITAL and influential you are to me and I am to you. I hope to forever inspire you to be the best you that you can be for each and every moment you are alive. I hope to always liberate you with the gift of freedom, free to be all you are, and all you can be without restraining you for my or any- body else’s selfish reasons.


I pray tonight, God please give me all the ingredients to nurture Gustavo Sergio Montiel Jr. the III to continue just as he is, perfectly imperfect.  I pray for the strength to continue prospering while he heals all his past wounds, and those wounds that have turned into thorns and strong horns that have been a weapon to keep people away.  I pray for his strong branches that they will continue to allow people he has trusted to continue to show him people can be trusted.  I pray that he will or learn to love and trust his own self and allow those thorns to be a place where trust can begin to be permanently anchored!

wpid-images3.jpgI pray I always make him aware of my gratitude for his greatness, the differences he holds, continue to encourage his giving nature, his caring ways, and selflessness. I pray he knows and trust how much I admire him,  he holds so many great qualities that continue to be my personal reminder of those I need to consistently work on. Gustavo has been an empowering tree trunk, I am thankful for his protective nature that reminds me that our family is safe in his care. His protection is important to me and to the kids, when I am innocent and naive I am thankful his wisdom and strength of reality that shields US from many of the harsh realities of the World!!!!  In Jesus name I pray, AMEN! 


I am grateful that you accept my innocence and allow it; thank you for loving all sides of who I am.
We both understand that we are renewed from the inside. So much of the yellow in your art shows that activation energized within. Love the open vessel open heart that seems to be working in the chest area exactly where it would be in the tree center vessel.


 I appreciate your latest piece of art…keep at it; and please sharing!

Just like roots… Your thoughts and feelings are deep; and it radiates in all we do!

Michele Renee

Updated: Comment from the artist Gustavo:

Often as I’m working on a piece the image is formed and the idea is there however how it actually ends up is always a mystery even to me. I have done quite a many self portraits or at least what I envision myself to be. It’s the most recognizable image I know and the inner workings of our own self is who we should know best before we can even try to understand those who orbit our existence. Often when a perspective from an observer and such an intimate one at that, it provides a whole different dimension that it is refreshing and empowering. I often miss the very things that someone as yourself has taken the time to analyze one of my paintings. I had to reteach myself on what to use as a catalyst for my creative inspiration often I was to quick to use sorrow or anger as the subject of my work. Anxiety, fear was a recurring theme how ever when you find yourself at peace, in harmony and with a renewed vision then those theme still exist however there is presence of hope and a desire for growth and a bravado that moves you to create.
I’m thankful that you inspire me to be a new creature with different behaviors. Keep inspiring me and keep praying for us as we journey together through this maze we call life.


Heartbreaks, Time, and Happiness

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time.

You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, eat well, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back. Don’t be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.”

Don’t let your heart run your life. Be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.

It’s true that love can wait forever but it’s crazy to stubbornly hope for someone who doesn’t even care or understand how you feel. You deserve to be happy not in the arms of someone who keeps you waiting but in the arms of someone who will take you now and love you forever.

‘When a bird is alive, it eats Ants .. When bird is dead, Ants eat bird.  ***Time can turn at any time, Don’t devalue anyone in life ..

“You may be powerful now, But time is more powerful than you”…

One tree makes one match sticks, but one match stick can burn down forest of trees….!